I fear the opposing voices within my head.
DON"T WRITE THAT!
...but I want to...
NO! THEY"LL KNOW ABOUT THESE PAINFUL MOMENTS.
..please... Who will? what do you want? why? what would they do with it?
DELETE THAT! DELETE THIS WHOLE THING!
no. I Can do it.
STOP SHOUTING IN MY HEAD!
Who are you! Are you me? What else can you be?
NO! YES? MAYBE... I... don't know.
IF YOU AREN'T ME THEN GET OUT.
but... I don't know!
STOP!
I.. can't feel you. Is it because it's actually me? I read too many books?
READING THIS HURTS! mmm.
DELETE IT! DON'T LET THEM KNOW!
NO! YES! GAh! frozen.
Relax My friend. They shan't know who you are.
THEY WILL!
You don't even know if these conversations are real.
Perhaps.
Fish.
What? fish?
yep Fish.
I don't like fish.
Then why did you think of it?
Probably to stop thinking about it.
it?
I... forget.
hmmm.. That rhymed.
very amusing.
What are you trying to hide? I feel you hiding something.
Great! Now I accept there's more than one person!
Did I?
NO! THERE's NOT!
STOP SHOUTING!
NO!
GET OUT!
ok...
NO! NOT YOU!
Then WHO!
THIS is a panic attack.
relax my friend. No need to keep
BUT..
relax.
NO!
relax.
no.
stop.
This. Is what a panic attack is for me. It hurts to speak of it. Or write of it. Or read it. Or share it. It is my greatest fear. It rages beneath the surface, sometimes deep, sometimes shallow. I hide it well, you would never guess who I am. I.... fear the voices. Should I accept them?
