Zoe a letter to you.

A letter to you 

Dear you 
Remember who you are. 
Remember to be real. 
Remember to love and you will be loved in return.
Remember that blue eyes and dimples are overrated and your hazel ones will do just fine. 
Remember that your short legs work just as well as the long ones you've always wanted. 
And remember that your ACT score does not define you.
Remember that there are better days ahead.
Remember that your first heartbreak wont be the last.
And that's okay.
It just means that there's more people who you get to love.
Remember that you live in a world where hating yourself is normal.
But please remember that its acceptable to love yourself too.

The Cure

To my sadness, Plays make me laugh

To my Anger, music soothes me

To my Happiness, perspective gives me empathy

To my disgust, provoked thought gives me insight

To my depression, Music makes me feel.

The arts are the Cure.

Donovan is my True Penname.

Our real names hide us more than our pen names.
Some of you know me as that undercover guy that works for the government and tries to buy cigarettes.
Some of you may know me as the silent kid. The Guy that sings loud in seminary when everybody else is barely audible.
Some know me only by the picture.
The person who tried to look at you in the hallway, but you didn't look back, and I laughed.
I find hallway politics amusing.
Perhaps you know my favorite colour, but I lied, I change the colour every time someone asks. It really is a strange question.
I am Donovan Welch

you probably only know my name. Perhaps my Face.

and probably think that sums up my entire existence.

I find that amusing also.

Let me help you know me.
1. My face is a mask.
2. My reputation is a mask.
3. I don't care for popularity. I find it amusing.
4. My mask is sometimes a mask to mask my mask.
5. I usually don't talk to people unless they come to me.
6. I don't judge people, I let people prove themselves to me.
7. My Mask only comes off if yours comes off. 
8. I can be very good at hiding my introvertedness.
9. Reading scares me, too many times I feel like I'm in the book I'm reading.
10. I myself have forgotten what under my mask looks like.
11. I can't stop myself from singing loud in seminary, I'm already as quiet as I can without going crazy.

What True Music Sounds Like

What to listen to when you want to woo someone.
What to listen to when life is too serious
what to listen to when life is complicated
Music for when life makes sense
What to listen to when you feel the urge to flirt.
Music for the insanity
Music for figuring out life
What to listen to when you're abandoned
What to listen to when life is to loud.

Where are you heart?

 Football game? Did I lose you there?

 When I close my eyes I see light and darkness at the same time.

 Did I lose you when I started to drive?

 When I close my eyes, It is both an endless expanse of lightdark, and the smallest pinpoint of darklight

I lost so much. Only a memory of what I had.

 Did I lose you when School taught me when you were an just a post card?

 I lost you at the mall?

 I lost you.

 I miss you?

                                            lost you?

heart?

 Are you there?

 Lost in Paris?

Why didn't you take me there?

I'm in paris?

It's beautiful.

Why is there a turtle?

Where are you heart?

Heart?

Paris?

When I close my eyes I see light and darkness at the same time.

I feel you even When I thrust you away.

I thrust you away?

hmm....

You cannot change the way I demand from the depths of my soul to not hurt others. 

Highschool love almost always ends with someone hurt. It's like a drug.

Stop Brain.

Heart, why must you contradict?

When I close my eyes, It is both an endless expanse of lightdark, and the smallest pinpoint of darklight

Is this my heart?

I lost you.

I miss you.

I have you.

heart?

The straight and Narrow sidewalk

"Nobody walks on sidewalks." -People whom don't walk on sidewalks

"Everybody walks on sidewalks"- People whom walk on sidewalks

"People who walk on sidewalks should branch out more."-People whom don't walk on sidewalks

"People who trample on the flowers should be punished!" - People whom walk on sidewalks

"People who walk on the sidewalks wish to end us." -People who now hate sidewalks.

"I fear hurting my mother's back by stepping on a crack" -People whose superstitions and sometimes religion are directed toward cracks on sidewalks. 


"Ummm This doesn't matter" -people who think they're sane

"There are two different kinds of people in this world, those who walk on the sidewalk, and those who don't" -Sidewalkites and antisidewalkites

"No... I do both...." -people who begin to doubt they're sane

"Then you must be evil" -Sidewalkites and antisidewalkites

"YOU SHALL NOT STEP ON A SIDE WALK" - antisidewalkites extremists and the church of mothers back.

"THE PANSIES HAVE BEEN SET AFLAME"
-Sidewalkites.

Why would anyone do this? -people who don't care a bit.

a hitchhikers guide to conquring humans

1. The only Rules humans follow are the ones they follow because of fear.
2. They fear being wrong, so they will avoid being wrong at all costs, they always see their way as being right because of it, even if it bends their reality.
3.They fear trust; they make rules instead of trusting people, like curfews and speed limits.
4. Humans generally think that everyone else is a minor character in their own book, which sort of is true, the only perspective we have is our own. 
5. Humans generally fear what they don't know.
6. Humans fear being alone, yet they want to stand out.
7. Humans pretend not to be afraid, they distract themselves..

my greatest fear.

I fear the opposing voices within my head.
DON"T WRITE THAT!
...but I want to...
NO! THEY"LL KNOW ABOUT THESE PAINFUL MOMENTS.
..please... Who will? what do you want? why? what would they do with it?
DELETE THAT! DELETE THIS WHOLE THING!
no. I Can do it.
STOP SHOUTING IN MY HEAD!
Who are you! Are you me? What else can you be?
NO! YES? MAYBE... I... don't know.
IF YOU AREN'T ME THEN GET OUT.
but... I don't know!
STOP!
I.. can't feel you. Is it because it's actually me? I read too many books?
READING THIS HURTS! mmm.
DELETE IT! DON'T LET THEM KNOW!
NO! YES! GAh! frozen.
Relax My friend. They shan't know who you are.
THEY WILL!
You don't even know if these conversations are real.
Perhaps.
Fish.
What? fish?
yep Fish.
I don't like fish.
Then why did you think of it?
Probably to stop thinking about it.
it?
I... forget.
hmmm.. That rhymed.
very amusing.
What are you trying to hide? I feel you hiding something.
Great! Now I accept there's more than one person!
Did I?
NO! THERE's NOT!
STOP SHOUTING!
NO!
GET OUT!
ok...
NO! NOT YOU!
Then WHO!
THIS is a panic attack.
relax my friend. No need to keep
BUT..
relax.

NO!
relax.
no.
stop.

This. Is what a panic attack is for me. It hurts to speak of it. Or write of it. Or read it. Or share it. It is my greatest fear. It rages beneath the surface, sometimes deep, sometimes shallow. I hide it well, you would never guess who I am. I.... fear the voices. Should I accept them? 

Alive

Comics are simple ways to see life. I have gone through every single Cul de sac comic, and picked ones that I thought related to my life or made me laugh. Just read a few, 

Nobody likes soccer, except for the blissfully ignorant.

School is not what it seems.

Some people are weirder than you. They're probably imaginary.

Not every idea is practical. Every puddle has a rainbow. And that guy has a mustachio. 

Sometimes, you need to let people be dramatic.

Don't let others tell you to put down a book you enjoy only because they didn't like it.

What happened to your toys? eh?

People see things differently

The loser will usually stagger into the wrong house and vomit.

Nothing can be perfect, and this is why no one uses lockers.

"I'm beside myself"

We follow others blindly, like puppets.

We are taught things we don't understand.
And sometimes they are just to cover something up that is wrong.

While taking a test your mind works in strange ways.

You must experience new things. Or you will never know if the ocean is like your sink.

We must give up old things for better things... And Parents are dangerous lunatics.

Sometimes people ask you to do something, and you get no reward.

Ignorance is bliss when Life gives lemons.

People pretend to understand technology.

You follow your dreams despite what people say.

You never know what life can give you.

Some people don't care about your dreams

But they can be beautiful.

Parents live to trick you.

Everyone has a different soul.

There's a bright side to even the darkest of situations.

"Is there anything wrong with that?"

Don't mess with grocery people

Parents live to lie to you.

Grand stealing thing.

Life can be complicated

People will not always be awed by your accomplishments.

Nature is beautiful.

Girls always go for the puppies.

You can stop listening, but you must eventually  come to the consequences.

Sometimes the most important things in life are what don't matter.

Adults lie. And Children can see it.

Minds can be blown.

Sometimes the "best" answer is wrong.

Sometimes, Mocking something is only validating it. And you Mock yourself.

Not everyone understands you.

Sometimes, you've just gotta do it yourself.

You need the correct tools. To thrive.

Parents either lie, or are just crazy.

Sometimes you must deflate others egos.

Children overreact to teachers.

Children are incredible.

Sometimes We look and only see the great things, but sometimes you need to look back and see who is propelling you. Usually, your parents.

You don't know what others are going thru.

What you wish for isn't always what you get.

Ice and snow should be crimes, but elementary school performances even more so.

The moment you take off your protection is the moment you will be hit with life's most interesting things.

Children are awesome. This should work.

Mistakes are life's greatest gifts.

Roll with it.

Sponges house germs.

Make room for other artists, lest you fumigate your house.

"The true artist pursues his or her art in the bitterest solitude, compelled only by the irresistible tidal pull of the creative impulse."

Just because you feel or act cool doesn't mean you're actually cool.

Teachers, I am sure, wonder about us.

Dreams can be crushed, but hold on to them.

Pessimism is a virus.

You can't tie down a banjo man.

Parents are good at what they do.

Sometimes, you just need to look at the picture.

Beards are dangerous.

Reading is dangerous.

Music is powerful.

Parents....

Sometimes, when you show love for someone they throw it in your face and tell you it's trash, but don't fear, one is a gum wrapper.

Every good drawing fight should end with the paper destroyed.

 Some Teacher's hair is an universal constant.

Tree's are dangerous.

People don't see the same way as you.